Song/poem in progress

I wish I were there when you were growing up,
I wish I could always make you smile,
I wish I could solve all of the problems,
I wish I could be by your side.

You’re a lone soldier,
Marching forward,
Fighting off the demons and ghosts,
I only hope that you know,
You’ll be forever in my mind.

I don’t know how to change what’s been done,
I sometimes fail to move forward,
I’m lucky that you have shown me strength,
I never want to see you cry.

So fight off the demons and ghosts,
Never stop fighting,
You are the beacon of hope,
You are always in my mind

That’s for sure

You said that you’d write me a letter,
Confessing your true love for me,
But that letter never came,
Now I’m finishing this,
I’m gone,
I’ve shut that door.

There’s one who loves me,
Wants me,
Respects me,
More than you ever could,
So tonight I’m moving on, moving out, cleaning up for more.

You promised me a ring,
A lifetime with you,
Of bliss,
Of happiness,
Of being with you,
But you took that away from me, when you said that this was it, no more, no more.

You broke my heart and then tried to mend,
It was too late,
My bags were at the door,
I’ve moved on,
That’s for sure.

One night entertainment

This is the time,
The first encounter,
The only chance you get,

We’ll talk the night away,
Have some laughs,
Make a suggestion or two,
But never to be again,

Your the one night stand,
Without ever meeting,
You will never take my hand,

Hope will be made,
Dreams will be had,
But over all,
It’s truely just sad,

This is your one night entertainment,
You never know what you’ll get,
In a world full of strangers,
Who just haven’t logged on yet.

I’d rather have hope

I’d rather have hope,
Even for just one night,
That night when we spoke into the moonlight,
We confessed our dreams,
Our interests,
Our love,
But now it’s over,
Perhaps for just a night.

I’d rather have hope,
Instead of despare,
When we made sure we’d be there,
Forever trapped,
Forever there,
Even for just one moment,
Where nothing seemed lost,
Until the next time,
Which just didn’t come.

I’d rather have hope,
Than just give you up,
Even though I know you want me too,
I won’t,
I can’t,
You push me to the limits,
You know it’s true,
But you made me a better person,
Didn’t you?

I’d rather have hope,
Than to have never dreamt a dream,
A world without imagination,
Doesn’t seem,
Doesn’t seem,
Like a place where I could grow,
Where nobody knows,

I’d rather live in hope,
Than have dreams without you,
Occupying mind,
Invading the soul,
Which now is the only place,
You can call home.

Belief

I believe in you more than you believe in yourself.

I don’t know how, I don’t want to know why. I just do.

You can refuse to accept it.

But deep down you know you need it.

Stay strong.

I need you more than you need me.

I don’t know how, I don’t want to know why. I just do.

Feeling Human.

It’s a strange occurrence.

I feel human. Defeated. Unaware of what is happening around me.

I feel as though I’m a mixture of emotions.

Yet I don’t know what I’m feeling.

The body aches.

Is this what it is all about. Growing up. Aging.

I can feel 72 different pains.

Yet I don’t know what I’m feeling.

My friends are all away.

Not that it matters. They have lives. They can do that.

How can one define a friend.

If you don’t know what you’re feeling.

Seeking comfort in a bag of nothing.

Even though it’s not there. It fills the gap. It makes you whole.

Now you’re not human.

Now you know what you’re feeling.

(c) Krislicked, 2010