Dear World, I’m angry.

Dear World,

As you can see by the title of my blog, I’m angry.

I’m angry that we live in a world where individualism is seen as something which should be excluded.

I’m angry that we live in a world where we leave the future to the world to 137 (or so) people who are more concerned about their hip-pocket than the future of the world. Newsflash, if the world gets any worse, you won’t have a need for money and your thrifty ways will have been for nothing. Idiots.

I’m angry that we are all susceptible to pre-conceived ideas.

I’m angry that I pinned my emotions on someone in hope of a “happily ever after”, only to have one fight and then get ex-communicated.

I’m angry that we have to keep explaining ourselves, and not only explain ourselves, but work bloody hard to get a message of positivity across.

I’m angry that creativity and imagination is slowly being drained out of our way of living.

I’m angry that people are not really caring any more.

I’m more angry that I don’t know how to work towards changing peoples perspectives on what they should care about, and actually educating themselves on the issues in society.

I’m angry that people who society respects, be it celebrities, people with “power” (i.e. Prime Ministers and Presidents), and so on, don’t always work towards promoting a new image of the world.

I’m angry that each country talks about things on a global scale, but doesn’t do anything to achieve, prove, or even work towards bettering situations.

I’m angry that there is such a thing as unemployment, everyone has a use to the world and more so, to the future.  Just because someone doesn’t meet your ideals for what you would like them to do in your company, doesn’t mean that you can’t get them to do it, upon other things which they are more than capable of doing.

World, maybe I’m not just angry. I’m also sad. Deeply sad that the world is like this as well.

We have the answers to the issues we face in life, any dilemma does have an answer, and it doesn’t always have to be negative (You are able to find positives if you look hard enough, or even ask a friend for an idea).

We, as a part of the World, need to come together and work towards a future which sees a connection and combination of technology, of inspiration and imagination, of dedication, and of hope.

Lets stop living in despair. We can do it.

Musical Dream aquired

The other day, I performed solo at a queer themed night at Chasers Bar on Chapel St, the night was called Asian Treasure.

I must say, it was quite the experience, while I’ve performed many times before, and mostly with choirs such as the Berwick Youth Choir, Camberwell Chorale, and the Victorian State Singers, the audience at this bar were insistant on being at the bar (leaving some 15 meters for me to use as a stage (in a nightclub, this is a BAD thing for performers!)).

However, I did a fairly good job dealing with this, and still did a pretty good job at Michael Buble’s version of ‘Feeling Good’. The second act was Tina Turner’s ‘Proud Mary’, a song which helped me win my university’s talent competition.

It was singing Proud Mary which helped me reach my musical dream, and realisation. The power of getting people onto a dance floor and singing and dancing along with you is an AMAZING feeling, yes, it took a bit of work pulling people up on stage with me, but they got there eventually and by gosh they had a great time!

If you’re interested in viewing the videos, they’re below the break here.

Vented lately?

When was the last time you vented?

Seriously vented?

I ask because I was thinking back to when I last seriously vented, and it would have had to have been last year on a short trip, and it only really happened because I was incredibly drunk (don’t drink until the legal age kiddies).

When I think between now and back then, a lot of shit has passed for me. My mother went overseas to work for a year, I made (and then subsequently lost) friends, I lived by myself for the first time, I had my first housemate (who was also a horrible nightmare which just happened while I was awake), I got my drivers licence, I started going night clubbing, I developed myself further socially, I graduated university (amidst many issues with assignments), I did a lot more singing than I’ve ever done before (I sing in choirs and solo), I’ve been & had friends be affected by depression/breakups/suicide. I met a boy who I really liked (but who unfortunately didn’t see me the same way back), and now I’m moving into rural Victoria while starting a new course at university.

That’s a lot of stuff which can lead to other things affecting the way that I work in the world. Yet somehow I didn’t break (too much), and I don’t really talk about it with my friends. I haven’t spoken openly about what is happening in my world.

I haven’t spoken about how irritating it is to not be employed in the field which I dreamt about for years in my high school years. I haven’t spoken properly about what has really been on my mind.

And that’s not to say that I’ve not been asked. I have.

But I’ve blocked off my issues from myself. They come back to visit me every now and again, and it’s then when I usually think about talking to someone about it, but if the issue that I’m thinking about happened over 5 months to 2 years ago, I feel like I’m just possibly rousing up old issues, even though they’re affecting me in the now.

Which makes me think about how venting can be a good thing, and venting in the now, rather than 5 to two years down the track.

I generally do talk to my friends about what’s affecting me, but because of my own self-doubting issues I don’t always get too far in depth about them.

Maybe I should.

Time to apply!

Ok, so with everything in life we have challenges that we set ourselves. It’s how we strive to move forward, to improve ourselves, to reach a new goal.

While I’ve already graduated from the three year course in Youth Work, I’ve been feeling the itch, the itch to do MORE!  The last 8 months have been pleasurable in not having to study anything, but I need to keep working my brain, I’ve got big ideas in what I want to achieve in the world, I want to be able to do more for the world, with the credentials that are apparently needed to achieve this ability.

I’m applying as a hopeful applicant to a university which I’ve wanted to attend for some while now, APM University, and will hopefully be studying my Bachelor of Business (Event Management).

I’ve had a great deal of experience in event management, and really do feel that I can combine both my Youth Work degree with my soon to happen *fingers crossed* Event Management degree.

After all, I’m looking for employment, and I’m finding it incredibly difficult at the moment (thank you economic crisis), but I’ll still persist, and hey, it’s a two year course, if I can’t work on getting a youth work job, I may as well look at doing something else to keep me busy in the intrim!

If you could/did go back to college to study anything, what would you do?